i've just returned from the hospital two days ago after an unexpected four-day stay. i went into my doctor's office on wednesday just for my weekly injection, which is done by the nurse. i felt awful that day... hadn't eaten and had thrown up well over ten times. the nurse took a look at me and asked if i wanted to see the doctor. i felt bad since it was late in the day and the doctor was on his way out, but i said yes. the doctor saw me and said he was admitting me to the hospital. i arrived at jackson north shortly after and received confirmation that i was dehydrated. many hours and a huge migraine later, i finally was hooked up to an iv where i could receive fluids with nutrients and meds. i have never been sicker in my fucking life. hallucinations and all. could barely move and was in excruciating pain. in a way, although the situation was fucking awful and i NEVER wanna go through that shit again, it was a good thing that i was too unconscious to really process all that was going on... i had no time to be scared. that's a good thing. i stayed until saturday afternoon. god bless those fucking meds through that iv, man. ain't nothing like it. two seconds after the drip begins, i'm knocked the hell out. & that's all a girl living with endless nausea could ask for <3
i'm actually really amazed that throughout everything, my little one has been really healthy. he doesn't stop squirming and swimming and is active as can be. the odds are not in his favor but he just keeps swimming swimming swimming. it really is amazing and beautiful.
freaking out a tiny bit because as shitty as my insurance coverage already is, it's about to get a lot shittier because of a policy change. it's unknown at the moment whether the injections will continue to be covered as much as they have been... and they're about $900 each, with 17 more injections to go. my pocket's already stretching way thin with co-pays in addition to all these hospital visits. last week cost me $250.
so many careers i'm entering after pregnancy... healthcare reformer, maternity wear designer, hyperemesis researcher, creator of mercury-free sashimi...
