today, i am tired.
really tired.
tired of falling asleep after 6 a.m.
tired of having to get out of bed because i'm so hungry, it hurts.
tired of peeing every fucking ten minutes.
tired of mixing pills and potions just to get a little relief.
tired of having no good position for my back or hips.
tired of looking like shit.
tired of guessing how many seconds i have to stand up and make it to the toilet before i vomit.
tired of feeling like shit.
tired of being alone.
tired of doing nothing.
tired of dealing with the realities of being a pregnant lady with no cash and shitty insurance.
tired of worrying.
tired of dealing with everyone's shit.
tired of living with people.
tired of going to every doctor's appointment alone.
tired.
i began progesterone treatment today with my first injection. it was a breeze but the site of the injection started hurting soon after and still hurts a bunch now, six hours later.
i saw teo again with an hour-long ultrasound but all i felt like doing was crying. i don't know why. for being tired.
